The “why?” in all of this

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I knew I wanted to document my weight-loss journey when I was ready, (truly ready) to start, but I had no clue when I would be ready and how I was going to document this. I constantly kept putting off my health and giving myself BS reasons of why today wasn’t the day to do anything and it really boiled down to one reason: Fear. My thought process behind putting this on the internet was to hold myself accountable, and maybe, just maybe connect with other people who were in the same boat as me married, empty-nester, and well a tad bit Lazy.

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How it started

During the pandemic I did absolutely nothing, but work from home, spend hours a day watching Netflix and other sites, playing Playstation and streaming TiK ToK. When those around me was baking bread I was eating cake and plenty of it. Towards the middle of the year I started to notice videos and posts on Instagram about the “Quarantine glow-up” while many Americans were taking this downtime to better themselves I was getting older and my weight was blowing up. My weight at the beginning of 2020 was 264.9 pounds I am now closing in on 280 at 5’2″. I used to be shapely, energetic and lively and now I always tired, always sleepy, and everything hurts.

Like many people when they decide to actually take charge of their health I started my research on the internet, going to several social platforms like FaceBook, YouTube, and Instagram. Although there was plenty of information available something missing. I viewed several sites and videos from all sorts of influencers, but they all seemed the same to me. I had arrived at their page after the journey was over when all the grit and struggle had become apart of their daily routine, years and the posts ended and sites were no longer available. These women had reached their goals and had plenty of tips and advice to give, but something just wasn’t catching my eye.

I wanted to follow along with someone who was also just starting. Someone who was sharing their struggles in real-time. I wanted to find something, someone to motivate me to be productive, be the invisible hand, and provide that extra push when I felt like I couldn’t do it. I could reach out and see I wasn’t alone, and more than anything someone I could relate to. There weren’t many bloggers or YouTubers that I felt that I could relate to. Yes some had “it” here and there and I am a faithful subscriber to them, but I wanted to start this journey with someone like me. I was looking for an overweight, married, quirky, slightly awkward, introvert, who was ready to finally become the person she was meant to be.

I realized that after all that looking I really wanted to be my own motivator. I wanted to see someone like me succeed and that’s when I decided to be the success I was looking for.

I welcome all to come with me on this journey. It will get bumpy at times, but I will be right here with you. Please feel free to share where you are in your journey and if you have any tips on what kept you motivated.

XOXOXOX

AnissaMarie

Published by AnissaMarie

Hi, I’m T—a storyteller, a widow, and someone who believes that healing and hope can be found in the pages of a good book. Writing has always been my way of making sense of the world, but after a few detours (including brain surgery, double shifts, and life showing me its toughest side), I’ve come back to the page with more fire than ever. Widow Tales is my debut, born from late-night scribbles and quiet moments where grief met imagination. It’s a love letter to second chances, resilience, and the kind of romance that makes you laugh, cry, and maybe blush a little too. When I’m not writing, you can usually find me with a good playlist, a journal close by, and probably talking to my husky and cats like they're my manager or my editors. This space is where I’ll share pieces of my journey...writing, life, and everything in between. Pull up a chair, you’re welcome here.

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